Tuesday, April 16, 2013

Throwing This Out There......

Ok, so where did I go after my last post?  Well, I don't know.  I ended up in the emergency room at the hospital twice, two different doctors offices, had eight vials of blood samples taken, was given all sorts of medications that were supposed to stop what was going on, and I still have the whole whatever it is going on.

The ER doc is absolutely sure it's anxiety attacks (apparently you can get these for no reason what so ever--they can just happen). My regular doctor has no idea but had two pages worth of lab tests run on me.  Thyroid tests came back normal.  The rest of the tests haven't come back yet I guess.  My blood pressure is higher than normal (which is really no surprise since I am freaking out because I am having unexplained chest pains, occasionally shaking like I'm having a seizure, can't focus AT ALL, my vision keeps going blurry, I keep having the sensation that burning hot water is being poured over my shoulders, down my arms and then it stops as it hits the bottom of my rib cage, nausea to the point I can't eat and even water is difficult to get my throat to swallow, my sense of smell is off the chart which is NOT helping my nausea AT ALL!)  When I went into the first doctor my blood pressure was WAY high--152 over 100. And of course, each time "the episode of burning hot water-nausea-blurry vision-chest pains" happens my blood pressure spikes.

Naturally I can't get a doctor to talk to me and get me help immediately, mostly because none of them can figure out what's going on.  I mean how many times can they get away with saying, "Well, it's probably just anxiety attacks and the medicine SHOULD be making the symptoms to disappear. I don't know why the symptoms are coming in waves still even though you took the medicine...."  The ER doc is certain that if I can just come to terms with whatever it is that I am so anxious about then they will stop.  WELL THAT WOULD ALL BE WELL AND FINE IF I KNEW WHAT WAS STRESSING ME OUT!!!  All that's stressing me out is these stupid episodes!!

So ridiculous!!  I really would like for it to just go away and leave me alone.  I don't know why I need any of it to be going on in the first place.  I hate doctors and I do not like taking prescription medications!!  I don't even take over the counter medicine unless something gets so bad I'm pretty sure I will die if I don't.

Ya, so not much knitting going on :(  I keep trying, but it's almost impossible to stay focused on it.  Even my stand by "mindless" knitting in the round projects are too much for me.  As weird as it sounds, the more relaxing the activity the more frequent and severe these episodes become.  Which makes ABSOLUTELY NO SENSE!  OH! I just had an idea, maybe I'm knitting the wrong things!  I've been focusing on RELAXING projects.  Maybe I need to make a pair of Turkish Stockings where you have anywhere from six to twelve colors to work with on each round!  (Made a pair of these before--what a tedious nightmare!)  Or a lace table cloth with thousands and thousands of stitches and lace stitches to work every round!  And I could use bamboo needles--which I CANNOT stand because the yarn doesn't slide on them.  That would make the project even more difficult and irritating!

Pretty sure I'm loosing my mind..............

If anyone, anywhere, out there in the online world has ever experienced these medical symptoms and knows what is going on PLEASE COMMENT!!!! If you have experienced these symptoms and still do not know what is going on LET'S TALK!!!  Maybe talking will help, or not.  I don't know.......

4 comments:

AfternoonMoon said...

I feel your pain! I had this happen about three years ago. HYPER sensitive smell. Like tunnel vision but for fragrance/odor. Im sitting down in the shop, completely and utterly relaxed. My heart went crazy! Massive, S L O W, heartbeats. Sweating and felt like someone was stabbing me with a blast-furnace forged spike under my left breast.
In the ER they said I had blood clots and gave me a series of shots for blood thinner. I seriously though I was going to die. I went to see a cardiologist and that asshole said, "I dont see anything in the hospital records that say anything to signify blood clots, it was probably just a panic attack. Women get them as they age." Dick! I still havent found a reason for them. Post if you find something else.

Hege said...

Can't help you here.
But I really hope you are feeling better and that you will figure out what's going on.
Sending you hugs!

Awesome Mom said...

((Hugs)) I wish I could help but I got nothing. I hope you can get a handle on it soon though.

Bhadragrandma said...

Run, don't walk, to the nearest naturopath and acupuncturist who specializes in Traditional Chinese Medicine. Not only will they accurately diagnose you, they will treat the CAUSE not the symptoms. I know, I know, mainstream allopathic medical doctors will tell you "These folks are quacks, stay away from them" I'm sure you have figured out by now that just isn't true. Part of your problems are caused by the prescription meds you are taking, they are side effects. Another part of the equation has to be nutritional, so look to what you are eating, the rest is generalized stress (like, for instance, your daughter having a baby)Too much work, too little rest and not being totally, brutally honest with yourself about things that bug you that you feel you have no control over. How do I know all this? 1. I've been through it, 2. I'm a Reiki Master-Teacher and a Hypnotherapist. And I have been helping people for over 30 years. So, I've seen this stuff before. For dealing with the anxiety, see a hypnotherapist and a Reiki Teacher, not just a practitioner, see someone who is a qualified Master-Teacher and bask in the glow of the most relaxing, bliss filled experience of your life (better than spinning and its hard to top that). Now, you may be thinking "But my insurance won't cover any of that". Good news! ALL of that combined will be less expensive than 1 visit to the E.R. You won't get overcharged, the practitioners are far more ethical and you will find real results whether the scientist like it and can measure and quantify it or not. And what you are looking for is real results, not a scientific opinion that does nothing to end your suffering. These steps will help you find that happy relief.