Baby Bunting and Update

Here is a picture of the baby bunting I made, with the baby in it :)

Pretty cute!  Won't fit him for long, but it was a fun cute project!

Going in to see a cardiologist tomorrow.  I don't know if I hope they find something or not.  After all, if a cardiologist finds something it's not a good thing.  But at the same time, I REALLY would like to go back to feeling normal.  I miss working out, not feeling nauseous most of the day, knitting, relaxing, etc.  Not to mention, if the cardiologist doesn't find anything then I'll be off to see if I have some sort of ulcers or esophagus issues--which doesn't appeal to me at all.

More updates tomorrow.

What's New?

Had another doctor's appointment yesterday.  All my lab work came back normal.  Which is good and bad. Good because that means I am not dying of a heart attack, liver problems, kidney problems, thyroid problems, Lyme disease, Rocky Mtn. Spotted Fever, etc.  Bad because the only thing we DO know is that whatever is going on is not all fixed with a dose of anxiety medication.  Meaning that I have SOMETHING besides anxiety causing me health problems we just still don't know what.  So, back to the lab for more tests :/

I have been able to sit still a little bit and do some knitting finally.  (As you recall, sitting still was bringing on the episodes and still is it's just that the anxiety medication keeps it from bothering me to the point that I can't function).  The Daughter is going to be having a baby girl in August so I have been trying to put together some baby stuff for her.  I made the baby booties from the book "Last Minute Knitted Gifts".   Not really the best bootie pattern in the world, but fun to make.  I have also made three cotton chenille wash clothes using this pattern that I found on Ravelry.  The pattern is REALLY easy to memorize and works up quick.  I'll post pic's of them all when I give them to The Daughter at her baby shower coming up next Saturday--don't want to ruin the surprise in case she gets on here and reads the blog :)

The T-shirt sweater is in "black hole knitting" mode right now.  I think I have knit on it through three movies and only added two inches to the length.  I hate when progress is slow!  If I can ever get the body of the sweater to 16 inches long I can consider it practically done.  The lace yoke part, even though there are considerably more stitches at first, goes fairly fast and before you know it you are done!!  I am looking forward to moving on to some other projects!

Happy Knitting!  And thanks for all the hugs!

Throwing This Out There......

Ok, so where did I go after my last post?  Well, I don't know.  I ended up in the emergency room at the hospital twice, two different doctors offices, had eight vials of blood samples taken, was given all sorts of medications that were supposed to stop what was going on, and I still have the whole whatever it is going on.

The ER doc is absolutely sure it's anxiety attacks (apparently you can get these for no reason what so ever--they can just happen). My regular doctor has no idea but had two pages worth of lab tests run on me.  Thyroid tests came back normal.  The rest of the tests haven't come back yet I guess.  My blood pressure is higher than normal (which is really no surprise since I am freaking out because I am having unexplained chest pains, occasionally shaking like I'm having a seizure, can't focus AT ALL, my vision keeps going blurry, I keep having the sensation that burning hot water is being poured over my shoulders, down my arms and then it stops as it hits the bottom of my rib cage, nausea to the point I can't eat and even water is difficult to get my throat to swallow, my sense of smell is off the chart which is NOT helping my nausea AT ALL!)  When I went into the first doctor my blood pressure was WAY high--152 over 100. And of course, each time "the episode of burning hot water-nausea-blurry vision-chest pains" happens my blood pressure spikes.

Naturally I can't get a doctor to talk to me and get me help immediately, mostly because none of them can figure out what's going on.  I mean how many times can they get away with saying, "Well, it's probably just anxiety attacks and the medicine SHOULD be making the symptoms to disappear. I don't know why the symptoms are coming in waves still even though you took the medicine...."  The ER doc is certain that if I can just come to terms with whatever it is that I am so anxious about then they will stop.  WELL THAT WOULD ALL BE WELL AND FINE IF I KNEW WHAT WAS STRESSING ME OUT!!!  All that's stressing me out is these stupid episodes!!

So ridiculous!!  I really would like for it to just go away and leave me alone.  I don't know why I need any of it to be going on in the first place.  I hate doctors and I do not like taking prescription medications!!  I don't even take over the counter medicine unless something gets so bad I'm pretty sure I will die if I don't.

Ya, so not much knitting going on :(  I keep trying, but it's almost impossible to stay focused on it.  Even my stand by "mindless" knitting in the round projects are too much for me.  As weird as it sounds, the more relaxing the activity the more frequent and severe these episodes become.  Which makes ABSOLUTELY NO SENSE!  OH! I just had an idea, maybe I'm knitting the wrong things!  I've been focusing on RELAXING projects.  Maybe I need to make a pair of Turkish Stockings where you have anywhere from six to twelve colors to work with on each round!  (Made a pair of these before--what a tedious nightmare!)  Or a lace table cloth with thousands and thousands of stitches and lace stitches to work every round!  And I could use bamboo needles--which I CANNOT stand because the yarn doesn't slide on them.  That would make the project even more difficult and irritating!

Pretty sure I'm loosing my mind..............

If anyone, anywhere, out there in the online world has ever experienced these medical symptoms and knows what is going on PLEASE COMMENT!!!! If you have experienced these symptoms and still do not know what is going on LET'S TALK!!!  Maybe talking will help, or not.  I don't know.......

New Yarn!

I just spent most of my day listing all the new yarn in my etsy store.  I actually dyed and got the new hemp yarn in October, but I am just now getting around to listing it online.  IT IS SO TIME CONSUMING TO CREATE LISTINGS.  Etsy makes it as streamlined as possible but it still takes FOREVER!

Here are a few of the exciting yarns now available in my online shop :)

My hand dyed self striping yarn :)

Some of the new fingering weight hemp yarns in GREAT colors

And then a couple of cones of undyed natural hemp in DK and fingering weight.

I also listed the new yarn colors from Dale of Norway's Daletta and Baby Ull.  A REALLY dark espresso colored yarn and a soft mint green.  If you're looking for some yarn for your next project, check out twistedharefiberarts.etsy.com!

Happy Knitting!